realisation..

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Tiresome amidst the hustle and bustle of life
Loneliness amidst the many familar faces each day
Roller-coaster of emotions, an everyday experience

Sometimes one wonders, if happiness wasn't meant to be.
It's something that everyone would think at some point of time in their life.
The meaning, the purpose, the reason.

Better to miss or be missed?
Better to love or be loved?

People who've missed would say it's better to be missed, and vice versa. Same goes for those who've been loved.

Many a times people feel that the grass on the other end is greener,
but when they finally get there,
they realise they are sadly mistaken.
This transcends to disappointment and they start to question the purpose and meaning all over again.

2 words: Vicious cycle.

the origin.4:56 PM

Thursday, November 05, 2009

because there's no such thing as a happy ending
because happiness wasn't meant to be.

the brutal truth.

-learnt : first hand.

the origin.8:22 PM

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

A bus ride to school everyday is pretty much a daily activity for most of us. Many a times, people put on their head phones, tune to their favourite music and just stand around, not bothering about the things that are going on around them.

But, to me, a bus ride can fully exemplify what life really is about.

The traffic lights are just like life's various stages. More often than not, when one is early for school, one would be more inclined to feel that there are more green lights than red, and vice versa when one's late for school. However, i feel that the traffic lights mark the various stages, even though there may be obstacles (red lights), however, with patience and tenacity to carry on, it'd eventually go one's way again.

The one thing that left a deep impression on me, however, was how a bus ride could make me realise the many opportunities that I've missed, which transcends as regret in the later part of one's life.

the origin.9:57 AM

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

i've no wishlist not because i've no wants,
but because i've too many.

I need a helping hand to grasp a self-study subject.
I need an inspiration to carry on with what's right.
I need a motivation to tread on the right path, always.

i still want that lunch/ dinner appoinment
i still want to regain my life back, sem 1.1 was alright
i want to head back to sjz
i want to head back to teach class 20
i want.. .. ..

the origin.10:53 AM

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Many a times, i wonder, what it's like to miss someone, something, or even a someplace.

Many a times, i think i understand, what it's like to long for something.

Many a times, i understand, how that longing will never become a reality.

I often ask myself, if i've tried harder, put in more effort,

Will things go the other way..?

I'd like to know, really.

Have i been playing it safe? Or perhaps it wouldn't make a difference?

CHANGE.

I've heard that far too many times.

Some say, change, just to fit in,

Some say, change, because it's inevitable.

But to me, the true meaning of change is to attain the goal that is at the finish line.

To make reality out of that longing.

A chat with one of my peers at 12 in the morning brought me fresh insights into this.

We debated upon the issues of being jaded, about the difference between maturity and sensibility.

Then, we reminisced uppon our past, upon what could have been,

what would have been, if only..

more EFFORT was put in.

Many a times i tell myself, i've tried.

Many a times i choose to believe that i'd do better without that part of my life.

Many a times i tell people that it's nothing but trouble,

Many a times i lament that i haven't grown as much as i'd love to.

But, yesterday, the friend said, that i've changed.

I've grown, but i gave up halfway.

Did i really give up on my own?

Or did others give up on me.

Ther's only so much one could do,

There's only so much freshness to explore,

There's only so much past to share,

Maybe they got tired,

Maybe i expected too much,

Maybe.. It's just not meant to be.

the origin.11:04 AM

Thursday, October 08, 2009

I was watching this show, titled he's just not that into you.

It pretty much brought me fresh insights into the burning questions that we constantly ask each other.

Many a times, these questions are answered in one standardized way.. which is .. a classic answer, of .. "ohh, you're just thinking too much, don't worry, relax.. ok? everything's under control."

Many a times, we just don't want to actually admit the fact that not everything goes smoothly, not everything's going both ways..

Then, comes the question of.. who are one's friends, really?

Those that tell you to get over it, cause he doesn't like you? Or those that tell you, it's okay, better to give it a shot, then never right?

Personally, i'd pick the first choice.

But, now.. i realise, that it's not about making such choices that really matter. It's about knowing what you really want..

Do you want someone who understands?
Someone with sexual appeal?
Someone who's dropdead charming?
Or just the friend, who you've been close to all your life?

I reckon, when such is answered, that's when one will really know, without hesitations, that that's the one.

the origin.2:40 PM

Friday, October 02, 2009

A plan.

Time + Broken heart does NOT equals healing.

it's the same as..

Time + Ape = Human.

I believe, I see, A plan God has in stored for me.

I trust and I obey, because there's no other way.

Through the struggles and through the pain, I praise God.

Because I know He'll never put me through something I can't handle.

I thank Him for making my path straight, smooth-sailing.

I praise Him, because of His never-ending love.

So, I declare, that my God is great, and He's over all.

the origin.3:17 PM